So my daughter comes to me tonight after we eat dinner and she takes a bath and says with all seriousness that she needs to ask me a question. Her question? "How can you miss someone so much and not even remember knowing them?"  So I pulled her over to me and gave her a hug and asked who she was missing. Turns out she is missing my Mommaw Adkins.....her great grandma..So I gave her another hug and cuddled her close and told her it was because she knew her, so she was a part of my daughter's memories...she just doesn't remember knowing her.....I know it sounds a little weird, but...

Shellie was 4 when my mommaw died at the age of 91, in her sleep. We lived in town then, but the house was being packed up in preparation for our move to our new house soon..We actually were only days away from closing on the property when my mom called about 1030 that Saturday night and told me mommaw was gone....It hit me like a knife in my heart, because as much as I loved my other mommaw, who had died in 1984, I was around mom's mom a lot more growing up, it seemed like...maybe it was just because of the 22 years between their deaths. And we were getting set to move within 5 minutes of her home.

I remember so much growing up around them....I remember--can still smell the smells of her cooking, how she knew what I liked to eat and made sure she kept it on hand. Even when us grandkids got to the stage of teenagers and might have been a little more difficult, she was always still Mommaw...always treated us the same, always loved us. I remember staying the night at her home growing up. Playing endless games of Aggravation--the board game, that is!!! I remember how loud the tv always was b/c Poppaw was hard of hearing.....and how hot that trailer was in the summer, although in winter it sure felt good. I remember good times with my cousins, who lived all around there...how we'd tramp the hills and ride bikes up and down the holler and run in and out of the doors of all the houses......

Then there were all the family reunions, still going on today, although not as strong as they once were. The last picture I remember being taken of Mommaw, in my collection anyway, is one of 4 generations of Adkins women.....Mommaw Rhoda, Mom, me, and my daughter.

I told Shellie to treasure her grandparents. To ask me and her dad and our folks about the family history. I wish so badly I had picked my granny's brain in the years prior to her death. So much oral history gone. This is why I continue to go to the reunions year after year. To hear the stories, not only of what has gone on in the months or years since seeing various relatives, but the stories of them growing up, and sometimes of us kids growing up...

Shellie says she feels her granny is her guardian angel. If she believes it, who am I to say any different?

I do know one thing---she picked a great lady to be her angel---I knew as soon as I had heard of her passing, that Jesus had welcomed another angel to His side.

what a week...

On vacation this week...much needed. So have I gotten anything on my to-do list done...No....however we did take a couple days and went camping in the mountains. Definitely a needed getaway.

Then we come back home yesterday and it's back to it. Trying to get the laundry done and keep the house semi clean......plus trying not to lose my mind over the stupidity going on in the world.....

I mean seriously----you refuse to allow the Keystone pipeline to happen, to create many much needed jobs in this country--then you do a photo op at one end of it--the oil producing end, no less, and say you are fast tracking the pipeline?  Did I miss something along the way? Or are you just moving your lips to the teleprompter again? Mr. President, you are a complete idiot.

And on a completely different subject--one of the top stories on yahoo!news is that Tom Cruise's daughter went to dinner with her mom in her pj's. Well, obviously the sense of what is right and wrong to go out in public in is not being taught to this young girl.......Mommy should have her head examined--of course I thought that when she married Cruise and got into the whole Christian science bunch of bullshit.News flash---Pj's in any form are not acceptable attire to go out in....go out to get the newspaper off your lawn maybe, or something out of the car possibly...but not to go out to dinner in, not to go shopping in, not to "be seen" in......and all the lazy idiots who show up at my store with their pj bottoms dragging the ground along with their houseshoes--also not appropriate footwear-----just had themselves and their stupidity validated b/c "a celebrity" did it.....

Then on a personal note, we have a daughter who has decided to act like a teenager at the age of 10....she has spent the week taking it personally when I have told her no.....now she is pouting b/c I got up to get ready for a lunch date with my oldest son's fiancee, and she demanded to go too. Again, told no, so she is now outside pouting....whatever.....

Now it is time to turn the laundry around and get ready to go.......

thoughts from my sickbed

So the last week or so I have felt like total dog poo.....sinus/upper respiratory infection, sever sore throat, the whole shebang....so for the most part I have avoided things that tend to raise my blood pressure, b/c I figure it's already raised enough with the decongestants I use just to breathe......

So I go to work today, and am home within the hour...just too sick to function.....take advil and go to bed, and now the brain functions a little better and I start to hear stuff...like brown bag lunches being confiscated for not being healthy enough for the lunch nazi's...yeah you can already tell which way I vote on this one...and the news just gets stupider from there.

Then I go online, and yep you guessed it, it gets even worse......and the stuff they call the news.....it is not news if Jenifer Aniston has a great set of ab's or not.....don;t care, don;t want to know, don;t want to see....God , no.....don;t care who's dating who or when, don;t care where the hot places to take a Valentine's date to are.....

Meaningless trifle.

twisted up

I am too old for this crap. Truthfully, I am tired of being tired and sore and all that all the time.....now it is my left ankle. Again. I seem to have twisted it on a small patch of ice earlier today......at least it acted like a twist, but now I'm not so sure it's that simple...I don;t believe it is broken..I can walk on it, bend the foot and toes and flex the ankle. But the knives of pain shooting through it at odd intervals are driving me and those around me insane. It's a sudden stabbing pain, like several knives shoved into the ankle at the same point at the same time. Yee-ow. and there it goes again.

Sigh, this is going to be a long night.....

Along with the back spasms and the shoulder muscles on the right side....eventually I am going to end up at the doctor.....

snow

Ok, I get it, it's January and oh my gosh, we just had our first snow of the season......since it is not even sticking to the roads, why the hell are people rushing for the grocery store? I guess I could see it if you live in a cave 50 miles from your nearest neighbor or something, but seriously? Most people are able to get out the next day, thanks to road crews and 4wheel drives.......or um maybe read the forecast a day or so ahead of time and plan ahead? As I sit here next to the fireplace and shake my head at the "oh my gosh it's a flurry we might all die of starvation before we can get out of the house again" group.......whatever.

And while we are on the topic of snow and people being idiots.....um, maybe you should slow down to the actual speed limit on the interstates when the roads are wet/possibly slick......ya think? Saves that nasty call to your insurance company to tell them you were stupid and they need to total your car, since you have done the majority of it already against the median cable barriers......


Some things I would like to see go bye bye this coming year...besides idiots, which unfortunately would probably solve the world's population problem in one fell swoop, but will never happen.......
1.  Obama as president.......by voting him out in November...that would be a lovely Christmas 2012 present.
2.  slutty clothes for preteen girls......I have one and it is damn near impossible to buy her clothes sometimes b/c everything wants to show boobs, belly or butt....or has a slutty saying on the shirt or the butt of the pants/shorts....my 10 yr old is not juicy or sexy and does not need to show off non existent cleavage...we'll discuss not showing off exisiting cleavage sooner than I want to, i am sure.....
3.  commercials promoting our local public school system......my property taxes should not be paying for high tech commercials to advertise public schools, which a kid has to attend unless they go to private school or are homeschooled. Let's use the money from our taxes to oh I don;t know, maybe buy textbooks? Art supplies? Better, healthier, tastier food? Better teachers/administrators?
4.Commercials for lawyers/hospitals/sanitary pads/tampons/erectile dysfuntion......etc
5. Any show/sitcom that makes a certain gender/ethnic group, etc. out to be brainless.
6. Special rights for gays, blacks, hispanics, muslims, whatever.......no one is entitled to special protections for them and against others simply b/c they choose to live/worship a certain way.
7. And to go along with that, quit persecuting/trying to silence those of us who are straight/christian/white.

i'm so sure I have a lot more, but ......i'll let you ruminate on these for a while....
7.

just saying.....

Nothing raises my spirits more than looking down the tunnel of what constitutes my family's finances and seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.....the one that says we will get through this and if all continues to go well, sooner than later......

Another spirit raiser, although I have fought against it for a month, is listening to Christmas music...especially while baking lots of cookies......

Spirits are raised enough that I actually had my son pull the totes of Christmas decorations out of the shed and began putting a few up today.......

Now to get through the next two weeks of the retail silly season......LOL.....

CAN THE USA SURVIVE GIVEN THE FOLLOWING?

(reposted from a friend)

The folks who are getting free stuff, don't like the folks who are paying for the free stuff, because the folks who are paying for the free stuff can no longer afford to pay for both the free stuff and their own stuff.

The folks who are paying for the free stuff want the free stuff to stop, and the folks who are getting the free stuff want even more free stuff on top of the free stuff they are already getting!

Now... The people who are forcing the people to pay for the free stuff have told the people who are RECEIVING the free stuff, that the people who are PAYING for the free stuff, are being mean, prejudiced, and racist.

So... The people who are GETTING the free stuff have been convinced they need to hate the people who are paying for the free stuff by the people who are forcing some people to pay for their free stuff, and giving them the free stuff in the first place.

We have let the free stuff giving go on for so long that there are now more people getting free stuff than paying for the free stuff.

Now understand this. All great democracies have committed financial suicide somewhere between 200 and 250 years after being founded. The reason? The voters figured out they could vote themselves money from the treasury by electing people who promised to give them money from the treasury in exchange for electing them.

Thomas Jefferson said it best: "The democracy (Republic) will cease to exist when you take away from those who are willing to work and give to those who would not."

The United States officially became a Republic in 1776, 235 years ago . The number of people now getting free stuff outnumbers the people paying for the free stuff. We have one chance to change that –

On Nov 6 th , 2012 . Failure to change that spells the end of the United States as we know it.

A Nation of Sheep Breeds a Government of Wolves!

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