Or maybe not so new, just reaffirming what I already knew...some things in life are just better or easier dealt with when you have someone to lean on.
Case in point...left work yesterday and drove to meet with the guy I am seeing, object to see a movie maybe dinner too..just spend some time together... And my car, which I was planning to take to the mechanic this week for him to check out, decided to give up on me. Died on me an hour away from home. On a Saturday night. Wonderful.
All sarcasm meant.
So I go for a mental breakdown, stopped only by two things. .this is not a side of me he needs to see, ever, Lol...and it really wasn't going to help anything if I lost my mind.
So we made the best of the situation, enjoyed spending the extra time together....still in the stages of finding out new things about each other.. And tried to get the car started again this morning, only to end up having it towed. Figured it was the alternator, but the shop couldn't find anything wrong. So I am now back home, car ran fine, hoping all work in the morning.
My point is that he kept me sane. Kept me laughing and not overthinking the problem too hard... A "we will get through it" mindset. I've missed that. And it felt really good to know someone was there to give hugs and support and care enough to be there.
Sunday, January 11, 2015
Monday, January 05, 2015
holy jumping house cats
Yeah I said house cats. I have one. She is an 8 month old black cat, actually a tuxedo cat. And she likes to jump. And chase things that aren't there. And reside in my bathroom while I do everything from shower to well you know. Lol...
The reason I bring Miss Chrysm up is that she brought joy into our home last summer when there was very little. She is a cuddly cat, loves to snuggle with us. And she has the most gorgeous eyes.
She even refrained from climbing the Christmas tree...we placed ornaments for her to play with on the bottom branches and play with them she did!
She gives us all something to laugh at even when the day completely sucks. I also haven't seen the slightest hint of a mouse or lizard in the house since we got her...Lol
So y'all can have your dogs, nothing against them, but I'll take my cat anyday...
The reason I bring Miss Chrysm up is that she brought joy into our home last summer when there was very little. She is a cuddly cat, loves to snuggle with us. And she has the most gorgeous eyes.
She even refrained from climbing the Christmas tree...we placed ornaments for her to play with on the bottom branches and play with them she did!
She gives us all something to laugh at even when the day completely sucks. I also haven't seen the slightest hint of a mouse or lizard in the house since we got her...Lol
So y'all can have your dogs, nothing against them, but I'll take my cat anyday...
Sunday, January 04, 2015
Life goes on
As I write this, I am getting ready to head out on a date. Yes a date. My life has taken a drastic turn in the last year. My now ex husband left in February of 2014 and our divorce was final in May 2014. My world and that of my daughter was thrown into turmoil...the only reason I do not bring my sons into it is they are adults. It affected them greatly as well, as this was the man they had been raised by.
The reasons for the divorce are mine and his. Suffice to say, I did not want the marriage to end. I did not want to divorce. I would have given anything to work it out and stay married. But it takes two people willing to do so and that didn;t happen.
Hence the title of this post. Life goes on.
I have mourned. I have gone through every stage of grief there is, and sometimes I think I invented a few more. I have buried myself in work and my daughter. We almost got a dog, but got a cat instead. I still fight financially to survive. But I could not live forever in grief and anger and denial and the past.
So I moved on. I joined dating sites and talked to a couple of decent men and wrote off the majority of the others because the funny thing is, I still believe in love. I still believe in the fairy tale. I'm not sure it actually exists, but then again, isn;t that what faith is all about? I mean, I believe in God, and there have been days that faith is all I;ve had. And even that hasn;t been very strong. But it's getting there.
Anyway, one evening around the beginning of November, I was driving home to an empty (except for the cat) house after work. My daughter was at her dad's for the weekend, my sons still at college. I pulled out of the parking lot and just cried and ranted and raved at God. Then about halfway home, I dried up and laid it all, the stress and anger and everything, into His lap. I gave it up to Him.
Funny thing is about two weeks after that, I went on my second date with a gentleman I had first met online after my divorce. I had gone out with him once and we continued to talk and text each other throughout the summer and fall. Between my busy life and his, we never managed to go out again until the weekend before Thanksgiving, about two weeks after I surrendered my burdens to God. My daughter again was with her dad so this gentleman and I went out to dinner. And we have been seeing each other since.
And with that, I have to run grab a shower if I;m going to make the movie with him....but I am happy again. I don;t know the future and I'm really not thinking too far ahead. I still have some healing to do and I don;t know what that is going to entail or how long it will take. But right now I am happy and my kids approve, so I'm going with the flow.
And planning on blogging more often...my life is slowly coming back to normal..or as normal as it gets...lol....
The reasons for the divorce are mine and his. Suffice to say, I did not want the marriage to end. I did not want to divorce. I would have given anything to work it out and stay married. But it takes two people willing to do so and that didn;t happen.
Hence the title of this post. Life goes on.
I have mourned. I have gone through every stage of grief there is, and sometimes I think I invented a few more. I have buried myself in work and my daughter. We almost got a dog, but got a cat instead. I still fight financially to survive. But I could not live forever in grief and anger and denial and the past.
So I moved on. I joined dating sites and talked to a couple of decent men and wrote off the majority of the others because the funny thing is, I still believe in love. I still believe in the fairy tale. I'm not sure it actually exists, but then again, isn;t that what faith is all about? I mean, I believe in God, and there have been days that faith is all I;ve had. And even that hasn;t been very strong. But it's getting there.
Anyway, one evening around the beginning of November, I was driving home to an empty (except for the cat) house after work. My daughter was at her dad's for the weekend, my sons still at college. I pulled out of the parking lot and just cried and ranted and raved at God. Then about halfway home, I dried up and laid it all, the stress and anger and everything, into His lap. I gave it up to Him.
Funny thing is about two weeks after that, I went on my second date with a gentleman I had first met online after my divorce. I had gone out with him once and we continued to talk and text each other throughout the summer and fall. Between my busy life and his, we never managed to go out again until the weekend before Thanksgiving, about two weeks after I surrendered my burdens to God. My daughter again was with her dad so this gentleman and I went out to dinner. And we have been seeing each other since.
And with that, I have to run grab a shower if I;m going to make the movie with him....but I am happy again. I don;t know the future and I'm really not thinking too far ahead. I still have some healing to do and I don;t know what that is going to entail or how long it will take. But right now I am happy and my kids approve, so I'm going with the flow.
And planning on blogging more often...my life is slowly coming back to normal..or as normal as it gets...lol....
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